My Dads Passing

Well, last week on the 22nd of May, my Aunt called me and gave me news that I didn't think I would hear for I while. She told me my Dad passed away. That's disturbing in it's self, but what is really disturbing here is that, I haven't seen my father in about 6 years. He has been in and out of my life for about 40 years now. Sometimes good, sometimes bad. His wife causing most of the camotion between us.
Now I'm struggeling with my emotions, which I find strange. I knew I would be upset, I knew I would miss him, which I did most of my life. But now it's like a perminite emotion I must deal with. That I'm not used too. Before, I could just pick up the phone, or write a letter to him. Now he is no longer on this earth, and it's like he was never here. Other then a few things he gave me years ago, like his gold fish cuff links, his lions club pin, and a iron bank that he had when he was a child.
I 'm also lucky to have great memories of us down at the Chesapeake Bay, boating every summer, eating crabs at Gabblers Crab Shack, and him teaching me how to swim and fish at a very early age. Boy, those were the " Good Ole Days ".
Anyways, I guess I just wanted to write something down about him. It's a part of my life and his. Now he's gone home to His Lord where he can rest.
I planted a flower in his memory this week where I can go to a reflect. It helps to have something like that near.
Well, that's my story for this week, I guess I'll work on getting his birth and death certificates for my records, and put it all behind............